Project

So I have two roommates getting married on Labor Day weekend. Yay!!! It's so exciting, but it'll be a crazy hectic weekend. Let me take you through the tentative schedule that I will have that weekend.

Thursday 2nd:

-Pick up Kaeleen and Ellisha from the airport around 10:30, drive back to Provo

Friday 3rd:

-Drive up to Salt Lake for Heather and Brandon's wedding at 9:40 I believe

-Take pictures probably starting around 10:30ish

-Finish taking pictures and go to the luncheon

-Probably hang out in Salt Lake all afternoon until the reception (there's no need to drive back and forth from Provo multiple times that day...)

-Reception from 7-9

-Leave straight from the reception to drive up to Seattle

Saturday 4th:

-Drive all through the night and get to the Seattle Temple hopefully by about 10 or 10:30 so we're there when they come out

-Pictures for Ellisha and Jake's wedding

-Luncheon

-Drive up to Ellisha's house for the reception later that night

-Reception (i'm not sure when yet)

-Either stay at her parents house or drive down to some friends house that just moved to Seattle

Sunday 5th:

-Go to church in the morning

-Explore Seattle for a bit (as much as we can do on a Sunday)

-Drive to Jill's house

-Spend Sunday evening with Jill and her family

Monday 6th:

-Play with Jill!!

Tuesday 7th:

-Drive back to Provo

Doesn't that sound like such a fun weekend?! I'm actually really excited, but it's just going to be a lot of time in the car.

Anyway, let me talk about this project that I have. So I am not much of a sewer. My mom has helped me make a lot of stuff, but basically she puts it together and tells me what to sew. It's been a great experience, but I don't really know how to read a pattern and what all I need to do and don't need to do. For Ellisha's wedding, she wants us to wear yellow and purple. I don't have anything that I really want to wear, so I decided that I'd like to make a yellow skirt and just buy a purple sweater. However, I couldn't find a pattern that I really liked of a skirt, so I decided to make a dress! I have no idea how I'm going to do this..... I will most definitely need a lot of help. But I'm super excited to see how it turns out! I got this golden yellow colored fabric and it's this really cute dress pattern that basically has a pencil skirt with a top. I'll have to include pictures once I actually start it. I will probably be calling my mom a lot in the next few days to get her help, but practice makes perfect, right?

Yay for weddings and yay for sewing projects! It's all very exciting!

High Expectations

Has there ever been something that you have really looked forward to? I'll admit, I tend not to get my hopes up very often. I just have had a lot on my plate recently, so I've been more serious about stuff than normal. I just graduated and had to decide whether to stay in Utah or not (I'm staying, at least for the next year), where to move, what to do for work this next year and other things as well. But anyway, I haven't let many things get my hopes up.

There was an exception this summer though!

And then my hopes were shattered and thrown all over the ground.... Haha, ok. Maybe that's a little drastic, but still, it was close to that. The last few years, Provo city has played these movies at Rock Canyon Park every Monday in August. Every time that I have gone, it has always been these old movies. Whether they were classics or just old movies that were entertaining, it didn't matter. It was cool to go and sit on a blanket with friends and watch this old school movie. Last summer they played Ten Little Indians, Arsenic and Old Lace, the Man Who Knew Too Little, and The Nutty Professor (the 1963 version). I also remember them playing Charade, but I can't remember if that was last year or a previous year. It was such a cool tradition!

Who would want to change that? Apparently, old movies weren't good enough for Provo City anymore. They decided that this year, they're going to show Romantic Comedies. Don't get me wrong, I love cheesy romantic comedies. I probably love them more than a lot of girls. But that was why I loved the movies in the park. It was something different from what I normally watch! I'll still go, most likely every week, but it just won't be the same. It'll still be fun to go watch a movie in the park and cuddle up next to a cute boy, but I would enjoy it so much more if they were movies that I hadn't seen before....

I guess there's always next year!

Making Decisions

So kind of in response to my last post (which was awhile ago, I know), I have kind of made up my mind as to what I'll be doing this next year! Yay!! I still don't have a real job anywhere, I mean come on, this market is horrible for college grads!

Even though I have no real job, I do have a place to live. :) It makes me happy to know that I will at least have a roof over my head this next year. And I talked to my current boss and if I need to, I can stay working at Miracle-Ear. It's not a good job for a college grad by any means, but at least it's a job and it will provide some type of income. That made me feel so much better when I found that out!

Now I just need to really try and find a good job for the fall... That's going to be the hard one. Any suggestions of what I can do or where to look?!

The future is looming over me!!!

So I've been thinking lately about my attitude on life. I don't think that I'm quite as excited as I should be for the things that are coming up. In a few weeks I'll be graduating (yay!) and will possibly be done with school forever!!! I don't want to say definitely, because I mean really, you never know, right? And then after the summer is over, I get to try something new for a change. Work and no school. Should be exciting, right?

I gotta be honest, it does sound exciting at times, but I think I'm pretty scared. If people say that they're not scared when they graduate and move away from college, I'm not buying it. I think that that may be my problem. With my impending graduation, I have people asking me almost daily what I'm going to do with my life. The scary part is, I HAVE NO FREAKING CLUE!!! I really don't know quite what I want to do. I am not usually an advocate of big change, especially change such as this. I may be moving away from Utah for good, or I may be staying. I might stay on the west or I might go back to the east. I just don't know! I wish that my future would just be handed to me. That would really help my situation a lot.

I had a friend who recently told me that I'm not excited about anything anymore. That made me sad to hear. I don't think that I've always been like that. I want to be the carefree person that I've been in years past, but I don't know quite how to be that person. I've had a lot of things happen in the last year that has weighed me down, and one of the major ones is this graduation. School is such a safety zone. I've been doing school basically ever since I can remember. I don't want to do school just because I'm comfortable with it. If I go back to school, I want it to be for something that I truly love and because I want to progress in life.

I guess this sounds just a little bit whiny. Ok ok, it sounds really whiny. I am just scared of what the future holds. I try not to show it that much, but I guess it's coming out to those people that know me pretty well. I'm going to try and do my best to just be calm and accept things as they come. That won't be too hard, will it?!

Memories of my Dad

I am definitely not the best blogger. Much of the reason why I have not written for many months was because of my Dad. After an almost five year battle with cancer, he finally was overcome and passed away on November 13, 2009. About a week and a half before that, he was admitted into the hospital with the Swine Flu. Isn't that ironic? Who knew that he'd be a swine flu victim. I certainly didn't think that!

My dad was first diagnosed with Prostate Cancer during the last few months of my senior year in high school, in 2005. There have been many miracles in preserving his life. The odds were never with him. If there was some rare side effect of a treatment, he would almost always contract it. It was amazing the fight that he put up. After a few years, he was finally in remission for the prostate cancer, but he was found to have an even more deadly one, multiple myeloma. This is one of the things that he eventually died from.

All of the kids in my family got an email on Wednesday night telling us of the gravity of the situation. He had been put into a medically induced coma, and as they reduced the medicine, he didn't come out of it. We all flew home as soon as we could. It was so nice to be there with my siblings and my mom. We all had known that it would eventually come to this, but we never imagined that it would be this soon. He had fought so hard and prior to this sick spell, had been feeling better than he had in a few years. Earlier in the year, around the fourth of July, my entire family, all 25 of us, had gotten together. We were able to take some very nice family pictures and have a great vacation together. It was a wonderful time, and I have some great memories that I will cherish forever.

The last few months have been very difficult. Luckily, I have some of the best roommates and friends. They have been with me every step of the way. I try and remember what I loved about my dad. I loved that I had the opportunity to live in the house alone with my parents for a few years. I was able to grow so much closer to them because of that experience. I love that he was always there for me. He would always say "I love you" when he was on the phone, and I knew that he truly meant it. I love that he instilled the love of music in me. I loved falling asleep to him playing the piano. Because of his influence, I love playing the piano. I love that he loved the gospel so much. He truly loved the Lord and instilled that in all of us as his children. I love that he loved my mom so much. My parents were never super affectionate in front of us children, but there was a deep love that was very apparent. It showed me how I want someone to treat me someday. I know that I will see him again and I am so grateful for that knowledge!

Ski Season

For the last two months, I have had the wonderful opportunity to take a ski class! I figure, what could be better than spending my last semester up on a beautiful mountain? There's not much that came to mind, let me tell you!

So the first time that I ever went skiing, was last year. I know, right? I've been living so close to some of the best mountains in the world for five years, and it took me that long to go. Well, I've repented and am doing my best to correct the situation. :)

My ski class started the first week of school, and ended the last week of February. We would go on Wednesday afternoons and just ski for a few hours. It was so nice to have some real instruction. I finally know at least a little bit of the correct technique. It is becoming so fun and I go as often as I can. I do not know where I will be next year, and so I'm definitely taking advantage of the close resorts while I can! It's just fun to get out and enjoy nature, no matter what capacity you are doing it.